well i think the artwork is finally done. had to do some camera borrowing to get something that would take print-quality (or near enough) pictures, and ended up with this Nikon D40 for a couple days. that camera is completely ridiculous. it oozes proficiency. i picked it up and it’s like it sits there in your hands and says to you “don’t worry buddy, i got this. just let me do what i do.” it was great. hopefully it comes out looking good too.

so i am uploading the art files to the production house as we speak, and they’re fairly large so i do expect this to take just short of eternity to complete.

i should be finalizing the masters today too, so i should just have to send payment on that, then get it dropped off at the production house as well, and then — the waiting begins again.

it’s crazy to be this close to being finished, and it raises a lot of questions, to be honest. they’re probably pretty normal things to feel when you put something you created out there. will people like it? will it amount to anything? was this a good decision? will it mean something to someone? did we do well at it? where will it take me if it fails? where will it take me if it succeeds?

questions, doubts, wonderings. i feel like at one time or another i’ve run the entire gamut of emotions on this thing. it’s been quite the endeavor, that’s for sure. i do think in general it is hard for me to wrap my mind around large concepts, so to step back and see this as a whole can be difficult for me to do. and i forget so many aspects of it, good parts and bad parts.

there’s only one question i posed that i believe i can answer right now with complete certainty: “was this a good decision?” i believe the answer to that is yes. because whatever happens as a result of this, i know it would have eaten me alive wondering ‘what if’ if i never did it, you know? that alone makes it a good decision. plus i had things to say; i would like to think that i would continue to write songs for as long as i’ve got things i want people to know or hear or think about, regardless of what might come of them.

anyway, just a bit of transparency there. we’re almost home…